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    BuzzFeed NewsLarissa Pham8/24/148 min
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    • skrt
      ScoutScribe
      2 years ago

      Hands down, one of my favorite personal essays I've ever read. First read when it was published, and I still return to it again and again.

      • bill
        Top reader of all timeReading streakScribe
        2 years ago

        Thanks so much for sharing. Extremely powerful.

    • p_scaal2 years ago

      I feel what the author feels. I know (parts of) this pain. It is not an easy recovery. For me, the relief comes from love and affection — knowing (and being told) that my body is beautiful, that I am beautiful, that I am me. My heart goes out to everyone who can see a even a flicker themselves in this.

      • Pegeen
        Top reader this weekReading streakScoutScribe
        2 years ago

        Great comment. Yes, I can feel aspects of this pain also. I was more one to over-exercise and definitely do restrictive eating. I’m wondering if all women, at some point in their lives, struggle with body issues.

        • p_scaal2 years ago

          Worth noting that I am male-identifying. I think the feeling of inadequacy (that fuels my ‘worm’) does not know gender boundaries.

          • Pegeen
            Top reader this weekReading streakScoutScribe
            2 years ago

            Thank you for that, I really appreciate it. I am older and still not accustomed to thinking in non-gender ways, my sincere apology.

    • Pegeen
      Top reader this weekReading streakScoutScribe
      2 years ago

      “It is about control and desire and denial and all I can do is wrestle with it.” This is so well written that I could literally feel her all consuming mental and physical struggle to the point of my own stomach being tied in knots. To live in such fear is not living. Hauntingly sad.